November 30, 2011

From Depression to Hope


Do you ever loose your joy and motivation?  How do you get it back?

At times when my back pain is worse than usual  I started wondering "Why me?"  At this point depression slips in like a thief in the night robbing me of my hope, energy and joy.  There doesn't seem to be any reason to get out of bed much less tackling the seemingly overwhelming tasks of daily living like getting dressed, cleaning and cooking;  or doing things that previously brought me joy.  That's where I have been for the last week or so, not a great place to be.

This morning when pain woke me at 4 a.m. I couldn't go back to sleep as  negative thoughts were running rampant through my mind.   It dawned on me that I haven't been writing in my gratitude journal and I have been  focusing on all the things I can't do instead of the things I can.  In the past I've found I can't be depressed and grateful at the same time.  So as I start this day looking for things to be grateful  for and counting my blessings, I can feel the dark, heavy and oppressing cloud of depression giving way to the gentle rays of  light and hope of a new day dawning and the promise it holds.

2 comments:

Regina Mize - Spend Smart Live Rich said...

I'm sorry that you have been in pain this week, but it sounds like you have the attitude to overcome it. It is very true that it is difficult to be depressed and grateful at the same time, so keep focusing on all your blessings.

So Many Little Things said...

I'm sorry that you are suffering but so glad to hear you can still find it inside you to be grateful for what you have. I've been there with pain and it is definitely a test. Thank you for reminding me to be grateful.